Monday, November 8, 2010

I have feeling too...

Sitting at home
I'm still thinking of you
You act like you don't care
Thinking about what to do

You say your life is a sad story
But won't accept my aid
You think I don't understand
But I have feelings too

There is always something wrong
A reason to be sad
Each time you ignore me
I'm getting a little mad

At first I'm polite
I think we're still friends
But still it continues
The torture never ends

I care a lot
A lot about you
But by the way that you act
Did you think that I had feelings too

You'd think that you would care
After all we've been through
You say people show their true colors
But the one who needs to change is you

Well now you're upset
And have reason to
But think about what you did to me
I have feelings too

Now that we're over
We are all through
You hate my guts
What would you do?

Now it's too late
I no longer care
If it really mattered?
You should have shared

~~~A really old poem from high school~~~

Saturday, September 4, 2010

My New Hair Color

Counting days, waiting for my two VVVIP come home... muackss!
Gonna have a blast September...oh...feel so great...

dyed a new hair color...


Brownie Hair



Pig Head


Monday, August 30, 2010

BORED BoReD bOrEd!!!!


somebody chat with me please......................

sien sien sien sien sien sien rrr~


Thursday, August 26, 2010

Melacca Trip Aug'10

20th-22nd August

3 and half hours from JB to Melaka....



A'Famosa 1st day - Animal World~

with beautiful eagle... 'she is cool' !

with b at wishing well~

At The Ranch Steak House, having our dinner....


2nd day~ water world~ nice!!! but sun burn, now bcm o lang... #$%%^^

1 hour from A'famosa resort to Melaka town...

2nd day nite~ to Melaka town~ Jonker's street....

3rd day~ to Melaka town again after checked out from A'famosa resort....

Lunch~~ famous chicken rice balls at Melaka.... super delicious! love it!

visited some historical places in Melaka b4 heading back JB.... HOT HOT weather!!


back to JB~

23rd- 25th August

shopping ~ new leather shoes, panda t-shirts and couple polo-T!!! love it! From HIM, thanks baby...
movie~ watching at MBO, U mall....
nice meals~ korean steamboat, japanese buffet, steak, ...& etc...
meet up with UTM's friends~ ming fong & hui yee~ thanks guys....
back to UTM settle convocation stuff~ hotel, studio, make up artist, convo fee! done~ hehe... =D

26th August

morning flight back to Kuching.... :(

i gonna miss u baby~
thanks for a great great holiday~ spending whole week with me~ c u on Sept!!! love ya....

i gained 1 kg after 1 week in JB~ swt =.=




Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Packing

feeling so great 2day....

woke up earlier than usual.... helping mum with some homework then take out my small hand luggage from the store... clean it...then start packing my things for 2mro...

Just hand-carry since just 6 days trip... :D
By Airasia flight....i must make sure my hand-carry not more than 7KG!!! fuhh~
a lots things to bring....but... orite nvm... reduce some more to make it below 7KG....

PACKED!!! 6.9KG...HAHAHA....

2mro dapao kolo mee.... put in handbag... wakaka....

Monday, August 16, 2010

August's 1st Blog.....

hi!!!!
wow....it has been a long long time din't update my blog...what else can i say bout Jess? Jess is a lazy panda...haha!
First of all, i would like to say a thousand million apologize to all my blogger friends for my absent in blogger for few months without writing anything on it....huhu....

After my final exam, my final sem in UTM, i really had a hard time to leave everyone in UTM who being my friends all this while, enjoy laughter 2gether, shared our tears, outing....especially for my dearest yung, my ji muis - ivy, mc, hy, mf,...., SMM's gengs & etc.... i really miss u guys!!!!

I still remember the last few days in UTM, i cried so hard in my room with my roomate, she purposely stayed longer in hostel (already finished exam for few days d) just to accompany me, spent more time 2gether talking in room while i was packing my stuff....

On the last day, she helped me carried and dragged my luggage into yung's car.... i tried my best not to cry bcoz my dear was thr.... my roomate followed us to airport... On the way to airport, i can see my roomate was crying quietly at the back seat by looking at the driving mirror.... my heart melted... hardly to control my tears drop down to my cheeks... gosh.... staring on my bf's left face while he was driving... felt like still got a lots of things want to tell him...but i dun wan to talk much coz i really scare i will cry like a crazy girl...haha....b4 reaching airport, my roomate gave me a hand-made card...she asked me to open it when i reached home...

When i reached Kch home, I saw my parents and family happy faces welcoming me back and congratz me for doing hard work in study....they r so proud of me... [HUGS] Thanks for the support all this while, mum, dad, sis n bro....love u all....I opened my luggages... opened the card from my roomate...OMG....i was crying so hard.... she wrote a long message for me with all cute and pictures of ours.... touching....i can't sleep that nite.... coz i really miss u guys.....love u dear...

After 1 week in Kch, my bf came back home~ he came back after settled his new workplace and new home in JB....I was attending a law (driving) class on the 1st day my bf came back kch.... after back from the class, he fetched me to have seafood dinner with his family at "Bunta" ( 1st time having dinner with his family....nervous....) haha! Enjoying doing sushi and having steamboat at his home too and of coz he also invited to have dinner v my family at satay house. That was celebrating Mother's Day too.... after 1 week, is time for him to go back JB again and start his 1st and new job... i m proud of u dear... u r the best....gambatte ne~

After few weeks in Kch, i found a part time job at tHe Spring... EVENT CREW... for Spell-It-Right.... two days job i earned rm160... it was tiring but fun....enjoy working with all KL SIR's staffs.... :)
On the next day i went to saloon to straighten my messy hair....haha....rm160 GONE.....

what else...?
Ahaks! i joined HIP HOP DANCE class now! unbelievable? Jess...u can do it, haha....
its true...i really joining a dance class at mendu road....Earth Dance....
with two funny dance teachers and a group of nice dance friends~

Having a enjoyable moment with my bbf too....maxine...
we went to take pichas at phil art :) haha....with July promotion....cheap....
Just want to try....


After 1 month, i received an interview invitation letter from ministry of education!!! lol....
prepared so hard for it.... what a stressful week i have after my study life....
i tried my best in it...and now i hope to get a good news soon....
thanks for family and friends support.... all the best to all of u too!

After interview....

I received my Convocation invitation letter...UTM 45th convocation....settled all the payment 2day....

i booked a ticket kch-jb & melacca too!........yahoo.... i m going to JB this Thursday to meet my honey b..... see ya guys!

to be cont.... aftr i come back from johor ya.... muacks!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

有你真好


有你真好 這時候 最能讓我想起你 多希望你在這裡 oh~~~ 你總是願意 把你的手心 借給我握緊 該往哪裡 我總是依賴著你 你是我的方向感 oh~~~ 我可以確定 你會帶著我 朝對的方向前進 I'm thinking of you. 我有你真好 你能讓煩惱變得渺小 我遇見一個最懂我的人 我會提醒自己 把這份愛收好 I'm thinking of you. 我有你真好 只要牽著你的手就知道 我不是一個人在這世界停靠 因為我擁有你 在我心裡 thinking of you. 有你真好 thinking of you. 嗚~哦~ 該往哪裡 我總是依賴著你 你是我的方向感 oh~~~ 我可以確定 你會帶著我 朝對的方向前進 I'm thinking of you. 我有你真好 你能讓煩惱變得渺小 我遇見一個最懂我的人 我會提醒自己 把這份愛收好 I'm thinking of you. 我有你真好 只要牽著你的手就知道 我不是一個人在這世界停靠 因為我擁有你 在我心裡 因為有你 我看見世界的美麗 I'm thinking of you. 我有你真好 只要牽著你的手就知道 我不是一個人在這世界停靠 因為我擁有你 在我心裡 I'm thinking of you. 我有你真好 只要牽著你的手就知道 我早已經歷永遠和缺少 因為我擁有你 在我心裡 thinking of you. 有你真好 thinking of you. 有你真好...

happy birthday to my dear bamboo......love u always...



Friday, March 12, 2010

知足常乐

from Hotmail...


這條短信, 真的很好 !



錢多錢少,够吃就好。 人醜人美,顺眼就好。 人老人少,健康就好。 家窮家富,和氣就好。 老公晚歸,回來就好。 老婆唠叨,顧家就好。 孩子從小,就要教好。 博士也好,賣菜也好。 長大以后,乖乖就好。 房屋大小,能住就好。 名不名牌,能穿就好。 兩輪四輪,能駕就好。 老板不好,能忍就好。 一切烦惱,能解就好。 堅持執着,放下最好。 人的一生,平安就好。 不是有錢,一定會好。 心好行好,命能改好。 誰是誰非,天知就好。 修福修慧,來世更好。 天地
萬物,隨缘就好。 很多事情,看開就好。 人人都好,日日都好。 你好我好,世界更好。 總而言之,知足最好。 説這麼多,明白就好。 這條短信,真的很好。 不發给你,是我不好。


SMILE ALWAYS 
~my cute bb nephew~


JESSICA’S a.k.a MISS TAN’S JOURNEY IN TEACHING MATHEMATICS



Everyone have their own definition about Mathematics. For me, it’s about symbol, numbers, space, measurement and science of nature. In mathematics education, we have to understand that learning mathematics as accumulating facts and procedures to learn mathematics as an integrated set of intellectual tools for making sense of mathematical situations. We need to help students correctly understand the concept of numbers and the principles of operations so that such understanding can lead to skillful solving of mathematical problems. Besides, we also need to motivate students to solve various types of problems by using basic problem solving strategies. The most important in teaching mathematics is doing a lot of exercises. Practice makes perfect.

After my matriculation course at Labuan, I have planned to take architecture course. I like drawing and photography. But I didn’t make up my mind to choose this course and finally I had filled in all 7 choices for educational course, all about Mathematics. I was impressed on the achievements for both of my parents. They were Mathematics teachers too… I can feel that they are very happy to become a teacher because I enjoyed listening to their story in school. And every year when Teacher’s Day, I enjoy unwrapped their presents from students…”HAHA”…like my Birthday! It showed those students’ respect and appreciation for their teachers. It really touched me, feeling deep inside my heart. That is why I choose to be a Mathematics teacher at last. My parents will be very proud of me. I am sure they will.

On May 2006, I received the interview letter from Faculty of Education, UTM! I was definitely very happy because it gave a hope to me that I will be a teacher soon. Many people will think that teacher profession is a simple and easy job. But I never felt that way because since I was small, I saw every hard work my parents did, everyday they would prepare their teaching aids and writing their lesson plan, marking students’ homework as well. Besides, understanding human, psychology is very important for a teacher. We have to understand every type of students, using the appropriate approach to teach them. Sometimes, I think that we can not only learn this from theory and books, we need to listen to experienced teacher or elders, practically experienced it ourselves, and then we will really learn it.

During four years educational course in UTM, I learnt a lot of educational subjects, for examples, Psychology, Sociology, Philosophy, and other educational subjects. For me, those subjects really hard to understand theoretically, even I have tried my best in understanding them but I still need to memorize them for examination. The perception changed after I trained for teaching practical during my 5th semester. Seriously, I can learn better in practical. From here, I applied what have I read and learnt in UTM. So, I think faculty and lecturers should give students more examples and learn it in practical way such as activities like sketch and teaching practices.

For Mathematics subjects, since I am taking major in Mathematics. So have to learn a lot advanced Mathematics in 4 years course. Before this, I felt that Mathematics is a very easy subject. But now I feel that it is so hard and tough! Anyway, still have to face it and try my very best in learning it. That is when we learn mathematics; it is different when we teach mathematics. As a mathematics teacher, we have to make students understand the basic concept of mathematics before getting to harder part. This is because understanding is very vital in solving mathematics problems. Besides, group work activities can improve the class environment and interest in learning mathematics. The activities such as mathematics puzzle game, Sudoku, quiz and tournament. Teaching is a very unique and interesting for a teacher. Teacher has to use every single approach that they know to teach students in order to have active class learning and teaching process.

In conclusion, I am very happy because I learnt a lot during 4 years in UTM. Besides, I found that teacher is a very professional and meaningful job in the society. I will try my best to become a good teacher! Yea…




感到很安慰


给特别的他写的信

你的出现,让我感到非常开心。 从前的你,是我的要好的朋友。现在的你,是我最疼爱的男友。
谢谢你一直以来都那么的关心我,在我不开心的时候,就会突然的出现安慰我,逗我开心。
你是我身边的守护者, 默默的保护我。爱你!一起加油。。。一起毕业!。。。YS


给最好的她(一)写的信

你永远是我最要好的朋友。不管距离多远,我们还是一直在鼓励着对方,十一年的友情。。。谢谢你, 谢谢你的存在。。。 想你!要加油。。。淑菁


给最好的她(二)写的信

你是我最运的一颗星, 照亮了我。。。教会了我很多人生的道理,也教会了我保护自己,让自己有自信,改变了。。。最喜欢听你讲美容的东西了,就像e-magazine那样。。。哈哈。。。最开心的是我们原来有那么多共同点。。。
真的很谢谢你。。。嘉秀


给朋友们写的信

谢谢你们的鼓励, 很开心因为有大家一自以来的陪伴。。。mehchun, mingfong, huiyee, huiping, smm & so on...




Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Hectic season

Last few days ago, when i was arranging my daily schedule, i found that i have NOT ENOUGH time to complete my tasks assignments...final year project... and i have to participate in STUPID STUPIAKKKKKKK BIG camping, sports and talk... then next week will have 3 days program anak angkat at Nusa Jaya...continuously.....HUHU...i gonna miss my dear and ji muis...

arr!!! (shout loud2 to release...)
mummy~ help me~

i can't wait to finish this last sem!!! but i gonna miss utm too........



Monday, March 1, 2010

You are the only One

2627~
our lucky number...~.~

the moment You hold my hand, i can feel the truth inside ur heart, telling me "i won't let u go and i will take good care of u 4eva~"

The most wonderful of all things in life, I believe, is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a glowing depth, beauty, and joy as the years increase.

This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvelous thing, it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it.

Love u, my dear~

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Monday, February 1, 2010

How u define the word FRIENDSHIP


It was a tired day for me, came back from class and tried to take a 30mins nap for that afternoon. Then have to start my revision for Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday tests.... Stress... i Can't close my eyes, my eyes were seriously tired but my mind keep on thinking and thinking.... so i make up my mind to ON my blog to read my friends' blogs and check on FB.... what i found???

something that can release my stress?
something that add on my tension? something that make me happy? .........

T
.T incidentally saw my 11 years (Kuching) BFF's status.... i was so shocked! and i can't believe that.... my heart felt so cold at that moment....for few mins... i MSN her, but she dint reply (coz away). so i wait... waiting and waiting......my heart beating so fast...... i tell myself "issit ME?" she referred to?? suddenly felt like wana CRY.....
30mins later....Tergggg~ (nudged~msn).....

finally she replied. i ask her wats goin on? is she ok? She told me that she is ok, only gt own prob...stress & tension.. (ME TOO! cry..) thats the only answer i got.....?!
i tell myslf, i trust u....

so i said,OK THEN , i also need to keep goin on with my revision......
BUT it takes whole day, can't focus on my book..... damn tired.....


WHY WHY WHY!!!


somebody? i need a shoulder to cry on~

P/S: writing this blog is simply to shout out my feeling.... nothing now..... we r ok....


Friday, January 29, 2010

You must love yourself



You yourself as much as anybody else in the universe deserve your love and affection. ~ Buddha

The person who loves himself only can be liked and loved by others. We know what we are. If we have the good qualities in us and feel good about it, then others will be charmed by us. Only then will others admire us.

But, how do you love yourself? You can do that only after imbibing the good qualities that'll charm people. Are you ready to do this?




i m lucky, u r thr for me

taking pic v my cute portrait...


Loud Speaker's CNY angpao~ so cute.....


Loud Speaker's K room's wall.....


a way to release stress?? Ivy, hugs.....


Oranges




This will be the final sem....the "last but not least"......
mandarin oranges for my coursemates and lecturers......


Friday, January 22, 2010

Mummy, I love U



Thank you for loving me,
Having me in.
All you have given
Now I hold within.
Kid in a vacuum
You made your own,
Or else I had been
Unborn and unknown.*










I turn, and you are there for me;
I speak, you understand.
I feel cared for, but also free;
You lead but don't command.





I'm fortunate that I was born
To someone just like you;
I love you, not just as my mom,
But for what you are and do.


p/s: * daughter & mum... look alike?* XD

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Phi + Psi = Pisai ( in hokkien means nose shit a.k.a tahi hidung)

I m totally lost in U…

Lost in P.D.E….

I can’t catch up on what my lecturer taught, he use a lot verbal teaching method… even a long long equation, he just read it and we need to ON our ears clearly… I did ON it…full volume kok… but still hin hin….

The example for the equation (read):

3 w phi phi plus 3 w psi psi plus in bracket 6 p plus 1 w phi plus in bracket 6 q plus 2 sqroot 3 w psi plus in bracket 3 p sqr plus 3 q sqr plus p plus 2 sqroot 3 w equal to zero.

Dushhh………..

At the end, I only remember Phi+Psi= Pisai

Next…

Lecturer: ok…now try to classify… …..bla bla bla….

Students: “????”

Lecturer: yes, do it… NOW…do it…quick…

Jess: ape ni?

Nadiah: huh???

Jess: mcm ni ke?

Eifa: ye kot…

Jess, nadiah, eifa : ENtah la….

Jess: *yawning*

In fact, he is a good lect and showed his hard work in teaching…..

But I can’t learn like that…

Tell me, tell me…who will be my guide??

“Craving my PDE’s book & notes at room lorrrrrrr”